GOD IS GOOD. Regardless of anyone.

I hate to say this, but yesterday, I stayed home the whole day, study and play game only. Rotting at home.

Nevermind, I stepped out of the house at 7am today to accompany my maternal grandmother for her medical checkup.

In the morning, we went to NUH for her Diabetes checkup and in the afternoon, we went to SGH for her eye laser treatment. Apparently, they discovered her diabetes is getting a bit out of control after 30 years, there appear to have some problem with her kidneys and there's bleeding in her eyes; which is why she need to go for the laser treatment to stop the bleeding.

My grandmother is obviously a bit scared. I mean who wouldn't? Someone come and tell you that you may may have kidney failure and you may go blind, wow... I know I am not going to be happy about it if it was me.

The eye laser treatment is especially painful. She really have some form of phobia going to the eye clinic now. Nonetheless, she will still go, she knows she has to go through it to get well. She is a strong old lady.

My company indeed brightens up her day. I heard from my mum that she was really happy the day before when she knew I will be going with her. In fact, she will telling everyone in the house that I will be accompanying her to the doctor. Hahaha. Well, I got to admit, I am the family's favourite.

Later, she treat me to all three meals of the day, bought me a very nice, street shirt and bless me with some pocket money. Hahaha. I feel a little bad... but I have learnt to receive blessing gracefully, especially when I know she gave it because she really adore me. I can't reject that.

I later had the chance to pray for her. She wasn't sure if it is alright since she isn't a believer, but I assure her that God is good to everyone, regardless of whether a person believes or not and all it takes, is just for one person to pray. Well, she accepts. Praise the LORD.

I hope she will get better. I believe when someone becomes old, it doesn't mean the person can no longer be healthy. I shall continue to pray for her, and please pray together with me too.

Thanks everyone.

GOD IS GOOD. :)

H for Havoc!

Went out and to meet Daniel, my ex-CG member who is now in Indonesian service to watch V for Vendetta. We decided to watch at the new Cathay Building at Dhoby Ghaut and my oh my, It was such a magnificent place! The place is still under renovation so the shops are yet to be open, but already we can see the glory of that place! The interior design is breathe-taking! Hahaha.

The only thing that is operational there at this moment of time is the cinema. The cinema is BIG! And the services are great! The attendants greets you and even brings you to the threate. I don't remember any other cinema provide such excellent service. Hahaha.

The movie, V for Vendetta was one of the better movies I have seen for quite some time. The previous few movies I have watched are well... to put it in a nice way, not worth the money. Hahaha. However, "V" was great! I love that sense of justice and that romantic flair expressed by the main character known only as "V" in the show. Not forgeting, the action part. Hahaha. The story is dark but good. Think Batman. :)

Later, Daniel left and I met up with Alex at Bugis. I just received my pay you see. Hahaha. Went to shop for some new clothes and jeans. (Seriously, I really do need a pair of new jeans and a bag.) I bought one red short sleeve shirt, a shiny black long sleeve, a faded dark jeans, a belt chain and a daffle bag at $127! I bargain with the shops of course. Hahaha. And Alex also knew most of the shop-owners. So everything was pretty cheap.

Alright. Looks like my dressing is going to get a little more havoc now. Hahaha.

GOD IS GOOD. :)

My Sabbath

Nothing eventful happened today. I borrowed Final Fantasy 7 from Pei Fang and was playing the whole day. Which reminds me that I wonder who did I lend my own Final Fantasy 7 CDs to... Oh wells.

And also, it reminds me that I should be lending Pei Fang Final Fantasy 8, Chloe the book on practical English and Yi Xuan TVB's The Legend of the Condor Heros 1994. Better remember to bring it this Thursday for CG.

Got a call from the school yesterday that I am very likely to be selected for Overseas Attachment! Yeah!!!

Other than that, looking forward to meet Daniel tomorrow for movie, V for Vendetta then we will be shopping at Bugis. Hahaha.

Well... I don't think I will do well in Spelling Bee or Word Power seriously. Hahaha. I hardly joined any activities during Emerge because my attachments always fall within this period of time. Nonetheless, I am still excited to see revival among the youth and long for the passion and excitement during every Emerge Conference. :)

Thanks to Word Power, I am motivated now to study and to memorize a particular book in the bible that God had truly impacted and changed my life through; The Book of Ecclesiates, NKJV. It is not going to be easy but I am going to do it because I believe I can still get more revelation out of this one very special book in the bible.

Ever realise that I don't use the word "try"? Because if all you do is to try, then you will give up easily when you face setbacks. After all, that is what it means to try out. "Buy something, try it out, if you don't like it, you can always return it for a refund." But if you were to put your heart and soul into something, you are no longer trying, you are making things happen.

Alright! GOD IS GOOD. :)

Need help removing spyware?

Some real serious thing in the previous post huh? Hahaha. Well, I am a person who ponder, think and use my brain a lot. I may look real crappy most of the time but I can honestly tell you that I am not putting on a mask.

I choose to smile most of the time. I seems to talk a lot of crappy stuff is only because I have a motor mouth to par with the speed of my brain. Hahaha.

Thinking, that is something I like to do most of the time. Thinking about God, about myself, about people, about things. Even when I am working, I will be thinking what to do next, what to say next.

Underneath all that laughter, I am very much a person who think a lot and will seriously assess many different issues.

The whole week have being pretty fruitful.

Friday
Had my elective exam then went over to Dakota to help CHCSA with some CIP work. Everyone was really really tired but still, it was fun. Hahaha.

Saturday
Went for ministry as usual. Went for service, then went straight home.
Why?
The previous night I was battling with this spyware called SPYFALCON. I logged on to the internet at around 11 and immediately, I was infected with it. It was really really irritating as it keep downloading this program forcefully into my system and keep auto launching it. No Anti-virus programs nor anti-spyware can remove it, at least not for free, so I have to search around to search for a manual method to remove it. Most of the methods shown were not very precise so I have to figured out many things on my own. Finally, at 4.30am, I was able to totally remove it, went to sleep and woke up at 8am for ministry.
At least I learnt one thing through this, I learnt how to remove spyware manually. Prob can even do it within 30min now. Hahaah.

Sunday
Went for Sun Fanclub's gathering at Douby Ghaut Fish & Co.! Very fun. Hahaha. I am waiting for the photos to be send to me and I can upload them. Later meet up with Desmond to visit a friend.

Well, quite tired now. I am still thinking but my physical (fingers) will not allow me to go on. Hahaha.

GOD IS GOOD. :)

Qoheleth

Meaningless, all are meaningless.

It takes a long time to build a good reputation,
but only a split second to mess everything up.

Meaningless, all are meaningless.

Few people see your good deeds,
but A LOT of people will complain about your misdeeds.

Meaningless, all are meaningless.

Just when you thought everyone is your friend,
and they were all smiling at you,
all it takes,
is just one person to tell you that A LOT of them think you have something wrong,
you start to wonder what are they really thinking about you,
and wonder if they are all hypocrites.

Who can I trust?
It is them?
Or is it really you?

Perhaps then,
you think you are not as good as you think you are,
or think that no one is really your friend.

That when you are hurt and no one bothers,
only make matter worse.

Doesn't anyone realise that you are not your normal self?

You give tiredness as an excuse,
but the truth is you are really feeling down.
And no one cares.

When you are down,
you don't want to be with happy people.
It make you feel worse,
you think they don't care.

Perhaps man don't,
But God is always there.

Even if things don't come true for me,
The Lord is still my God.

So while you can do good, do so,
for if man don't see, God will.
if man don't praise, God will.

And when you make a mistake,
man may leave you, but God will never.
man may not forgive, but God will.

Life is meaningless indeed, if it is without God.

GOD IS GOOD. :)

Personal Study Tips: Wisdom Gives Life to Knowledge.

We learnt from pastor that in order to do well in our studies, we must stop saying negative things such as, "This time fail liao!", "Die lah!" but instead, confess positive things like, "I will have good results!" and "I am going to make it!"

That is indeed the first step to good results.

The next step is to of course, study!

Jas 2:20
"But do you want to know, O foolish man, that faith without works is dead?"

However, have you know of students who study and study but never seems to do well?

They are stuck to their notes the whole day, they keep doing past-years papers, make a whole pile of personal notes and can even recite their textbooks but their results is always nothing more than a pass.

I always hear many student saying this after a test or when the results are out,

"I know, I really know but I just don't know how to answer!"

Does that sound familiar to you? Perhaps, even you have said something similar too.

So what went wrong?

Ec 2:17
"For wisdom is a defense as money is a defense, But the excellence of knowledge is that wisdom gives life to those who have it."

The problem with many student is not knowledge but they lack wisdom! According to the verse, wisdom gives life to the one who already have the knowledge! Knowlegde only excel with wisdom!

What is knowledge and what is wisdom?

According to the Cambridge Dictionary,
Knowledge information and understanding that you have in your mind.
Wisdom is the ability to use your knowledge and experience to make good decisions and judgments.

Reading textbooks, memorizing and doing past year papers are important but all these just increase knowledge and not wisdom!

The verse also remind me of a Chinese saying, “读死书，读书死” (Which can be loosely translated that if all one does is to study from books, he will die studying.)

So how do you increase wisdom?

Jas 1:5
"If any of you lacks wisdom, let him ask of God, who gives to all liberally and without reproach, and it will be given to him."

The first and foremost thing, as a Christian, you should pray and ask God for wisdom.

Remember this point well, what works for the spiritual will also work for the natural. The key word for this verse is "ask". Wisdom comes by asking questions and answering them!

Now, I don't mean asking question that will come out for exams. Questions like "What is the role of vitamin C?" and "How is a waterfall formed?" will just set you reading and refering to your textbooks, which is again just dealing with the area of knowledge. You need to ask questions that will set you thinking, thinking of more questions and multiple solutions to each questions then branch out to more questions again.

Lets have a look at an example of a good thinking process when studying.

"What is the role of vitamin C? It is helps to boost the body's immune system." "
"So where can I obtain vitamin C? Vitamin C can be found in most vegetables and fruits, not forgetting vitamin supplements which you can get over the counter."
"What is the recommended amount of vitamin C a person should consume? Most food labels will recommend taking at least 500mg to 1000mg of vitamin C each day but there isn't a maximum amount stated."
"Have I read any articles or journals about vitamin C? Yes! Most articles will mention vitamin C with vitamin E and beta-carotene as anti-oxidants that could reduce free-radicals which causes aging and cancer growth."
"So where is vitamin C absorbed? In the small intestines together with digested food particles."
"So how does the small intestine function? The small intestine blah blah blah..."

I will not go on further but that's the basic idea. The ability to think beyond what most people will consider the "standard" answer. Of course you don't answer your exam question that way but thinking in such a way make your brain work and help you to link up with other knowledge that you have previously learnt. It sets you thinking, explain things in greater and further details and gives a deeper understanding of the knowledge that you have learnt. From there, you will also gather new knowledge and greater insight, just by thinking and asking questions alone!

When you study, when you ask questions and answer them, You should never let the knowledge in your mind be isolated like stand-alone computers. Never make the mistake that "biology is for biology" and "physics is for physics"! Such method of study I like to call it "Micro-study" as it restricts the learner to just looking at every piece of information in a narrow perspective.

However, learn to understand that one topic can always be linked with another topic. One subject can also explain or give a different view of another subject. Let your thinking work like a network server where you can have access to many computers from one computer. Think of how you can link different pieces of information together and learn to look at one subject in many different perspectives. Ask questions about a question and answer them. I call this method of study, "Macro-study" as the learner see things in a wide, limitless view.

Sounds difficult? Well, no one ever said that studying is easy. The main point I want to stress on here is to ask questions, think wide, see things in different angles and perspective and answer the question and ask more questions once again.

Wisdom as you can see by now, is really a collection of the experience you have and the flexibility of it is how much you really use your brain.

There is a myth that study is easier for younger people and thus, it is less suitable for older people. In fact, people also try to prove this point by stating the fact that the brain decreases in size as the person age.

However, studies have also showed that as a person gets older, the different parts of the brain also have better nerve linkage to each other and thus, despite the size of the brain decreases, the person is able to better reason and see things in a wider perspective. Which is why it is very common to see older people able to understand certain topics better than younger people. It also explain why a Varsity Degree is offered to people after a certain age.

But do you have to wait until you are old before you can "study better" or have wisdom? Not true. The reason why older people have more wisdom is because they have used their brain more than younger people over a longer period of time. In other words, if you learn to use your brain more, you can also improve the connectivity and function of your brain.

Thus the saying, "Practise makes perfect."

One way to increase wisdom is then to read widely, be up-to-date with new informations, to go beyond your textbooks and what is expected of you.

If you are studying Infocom, don't just read about I.T. but read also about healthcare and politics. If you are studying Healthcare, read also about electronic and world history. Read not just what you are interested in but allow yourself to be saturated with knowledge from different perspectives and disciplines. Look at information even if they oppose your belief. Seek to understand how other people think in differing views. Doing so, you will be able to answer many questions in many possible ways. That is how you can set yourslef thinking.

Thus, I am not really telling you how to do well in certain topics. What I am sharing is really a method that will help you to excel in not just your studies but also in every decision you make and in your future career.

If you want to have better result but see no breakthrough because you keep studying using an old method, try something new today! To keep doing the same thing and expect to have a different result is not perseverance, it is MADNESS!

ASK for wisdom today. It is going to ease your study once you grasp hold of it. Remember, it is not about IQ. King Solomon wasn't born with great intelligence in the first place.

GOD IS GOOD.

Darkness...

No no. Not talking about myself. It's my room, the bulb fused and I am now working in darkness. Hahaha. Sign...

Presenting to you, my inner thoughts.

Being awhile since I blog. Nothing much to blog about because things are just slowing down now.

Monday just went home to sleep right after school.

Tuesday didn't go to school, went out with a few of my CG members, Alex, Chloe, Desmond, Yiquan, Yixuan, Pei Fang and Joey. Went to watch this Thai "horror", Dorm.

Well... all of us laughed about half the time while watching the movie when it is suppose to be horror. Hahaha. The story plot is suppose to be touching but the story is just too typical and a bit lame. It just ended up making us laugh at times when we are supposed to "cry". Hahaha.

Also heard from Xueting that she passed her modules and will be getting her Diploma! Congratulations! I am very very HAPPY for you!

As for today, there is no lesson. Stayed at home until my mum called me to say that my grandma is sick and asked me to go and visit her.

About a couple of weeks ago, the blood vessels in her eyes burst and everything she see is red. She had to go for a few laser treatment to correct it but she still risk getting blind. Then she have being having pretty bad headache for the past few days and she had being sleeping through out because of the medication. I had a look at the medication today and realise 2 of them were actually very strong painkillers. One of them is Panadeine.

Having attended my 5th uncle's funeral last Tuesday, I was a bit paranoid that my uncle died of stroke and before that, he complained of a very bad headache and died just one day later, while watching TV. I just pray that my grandma is... alright.

Nonetheless, I know that "all things happened for the good of those who love Him."

GOD IS GOOD. :)

Where is my Sabbath?

Monday: Went out with friends after school.
See previous post.

Tuesday: Attended funeral.
It was my fifth uncle, from my Godfather's side. He was the youngest among his sibling. Died of massive bleeding in the brain, also known as stroke.
He was only 50 years old... probably because of high blood pressure. He only had a bad headache a day before and he collaspe the next day while watching television...
Grief overwhelmed me as I looked at his still face... I almost cried.

Wednesday: Visit friend at her new place.
See previous post.

Thursday: Cell Group Meeting + East Coast BBQ outing!
One of the shortest CG meeting ever. Hahaha. We really enjoyed ourselves and celebrated Desmond's birthday at the BBQ. A few glitches here and there, nonetheless, it was still very enjoyable.
Two new friends, Hanzo and Pei Fang joined us for both CG and BBQ.
Most memorable quote of the day was the birthday greeting Alex wrote on Desmond's birthday card:
"...you are one year older and one year closer to the Lord..."
Maybe he could also add "The Lord is my Shepherd I shall not want..." Hahaha. Everyone including Desmond was laughing away.

Friday: Attended yet another funeral.
It was Sister Irene's grandmother. Went together with Vincent, Jacelyn and Hong Yun in the afternoon.
Irene seems quite ok though she looked really tired. Just pray everything will be fine for her and her family.

Saturday: COPE ministry + Bible study + Service + Fellowship!
Had an interesting encounter during ministry today. Spotted 2 youngsters sniffing glue at the staircase while doing saturation. Smiled and spoke nicely to them and adviced them not to do it again.
Greatest weapon of persuasion? Told them I am a nurse and tell them what will happen if they continue to sniff glue.
Svc was great and the sermons will be up on W372's Blog soon.
Fellowship at Suntec City. Peifang and Daniel, both new friends joined us. I was a little out of my mind that day. Hahaha. Guess I am a little too tired. Nonetheless, everyone including I enjoyed myself. I am becoming the people's person already. Hahaha.

Sunday (Today): JAMs PA + Photo Shootout + Spelling Bee!
Helped out in JAMs today. Really fun, and a bit scary. Hahaha. I personally attended to this particular student who will go around and beat up anyone whom he dislikes. I sat beside him, focus my attention on him and guide him along. I think he really like me somehow, keep holding my hands, clap together with me, laugh like me and keep "high fiving" with me. Later, he even respond to the altar call as I offer to do to the front together with him. Hahaha.
Later got pulled into the photo shootout for Sister Darryl. Got to pose like streetwise youngster and we gotta frown throughout to look cool. Hahaha. Got Xueting, Sandy, Yiquan and Alvin the five of us. A bit funny lah, we all look too "nice" to shoot such photos. Hahaha. Nonetheless, I think it still go pretty well. Will post the photos once I recieve them. Hahaha.
Spelling Bee is... oh wells. Didn't really study much. Left a lot of blanks. When I notice the camera coming near me, I tried to cover my paper with one hand and pretend I was writing something on my paper when I am not writing anything. Hahaha.

The best thing this week was the message the Brother Ming Jin shared with me right after bible study on Saturday. My spirit was really stirred up. Man! Gotta be more active and hungry for God from now onwards. Hahaha.

GOD IS GOOD! :) Hmmm... So where is my Sabbath?

Light in the midst of disappointments

Hmmm... Actually, I think I did pretty well for my clinical skills assessments. Ya, I wasn't happy that my Bioscience Practical only have a B+ but I can still find pleasure in other things. Not stuck up aren't I? Hahaha.

There is 2 parts to the clinical skills module test. 1 is the practical assessment, which I think I did pretty well because ALL the lecturers in the assessment room that day are smiling at me with looks of approval during my assessment. Yup, I seems to have overcome the uneasiness of having being observed by a facilitator during my practical and I was one of the loudest as I explain and verbalize my steps that day.

Normally, most of us will try to speak under our breathe during assessment as we aren't sure if we did and explain everything correctly. Yup, you can say I was pretty confident somehow.

The 2nd part of the clnical skills test is a written theory paper which consist of MCQs and SAQs. BTW, I scored 24 out of 25 for my MCQs, which according to the lecturers, was the highest score for this section in the school. Hahaha. Overall, I calculated that I have an A for the theory paper. Yeah!!!

Went to Jiji's place today with Xueting. Was something like an invitation from Jiji. Hahaha. Jiji's really happy that we went all the way to the end of Singapore at Pungol to visited her new place. Hahaha.

Visiting Jiji lets me understand why she said her previous place is too small for her. She is now living alone in a 3 room apartment. The moment I step in, I saw this big gigantic canvas rack with a half done painting in the living room. The painting was really nice even though it was not yet completed.

In one of the room was a Cello. I was quite surprize to know that she play the Cello. It was one big instrument... No wonder she really need a large place.

Nonetheless, she is really multi-talented. Amazing.

Had dinner at her place and we spend a good of a time fellowship. It was a wonderful time and when Xue and I left, Jiji kept telling us that we must go back again and next time, we will have ice-cream at her place. Hahaha. I look forward to that. ;)

GOD IS GOOD. :)

Back once again. With a little disappointment.

Not being blogging because I was:

1. Busy with my exams
2. Getting involve with a lot of activities with my CG/zone mates.
3. A bit lazy to blog. Hahaha.

Anyway, a lot had happened the past week and it had being pretty draining. Nonetheless, I really do enjoyed myself. Learning to play and work at the same time.

Lots of thing have to handle in school last week. Gotta prepare my presentations and study for my exams. The presentation took up so much of my energy (Not so much of time) that I find it very exhaustive to study for my Bioscience practical paper. In the end, I found out that I had a B+ for it.... ONLY A B+!!! Too much lah...

Ok. It may seem like I am arrogant when I am complaining that I have a B+. Fact is, I always have an A for my Bio practical and this is the first time I have a B+.

So now when someone read this, they will start to say, "How about people who have less then a B? how about those who fail?" Let me explain myself. This is the kind of standard I set for myself. I don't look down on people who didn't do as well as I do. I am just disappointed at my own results.

When my friends who always score a D and finally have a C this time round, I will still cheer and celebrate with him/her. But for me, if I fall short of the expectation I set for myself, I will not think it a reason to celebrate. Get it?

What is "good" for someone need not neccesary be "good' for another person. Just like the phrase goes, "What is one's man's rubbish is another man's treasure." Same application.

Just like many people who like cherries, they will describe the taste as sweet. But for me, I totally dislike cherries because it taste bitter to me and it reminds me of cough syrup.

Yup. So I am pretty disappointed about it.

Went out with Xueting, Alex, Jiji, Kenneth, Kenneth's brother and Gerald yesterday. It was really fun initially, until some miscommunication happened. Nothing to do with me though, watched everything as a bystander. Later I have to see to things that it don't turn into some form of arguement. Not going into the details here.

But it make me see one thing.

A real man with who live with a purpose will make his purpose be known right from the beginning.

A real man will not expect everyone to understand him irrationally.

A real man is not self-centred.

A real man is generous.

A real man know how to use his words wisely and speak tactfully.

A real man will be concerned of true practical needs instead of going into unneccesary details.

The words of a real man bring comfort instead of anger, fear or anger.

Hahaha. Well. GOD IS GOOD. :)

Facing the Challenges Ahead.

Finally finished off my last two presentations for this semester this Monday.

One of the presentation was an individual presentation on patient education. As the first person on the class list, I was once again the honored one to present first.

I wasn't sure of many things for the presentation so I did quite a lot of things in the last minutes and because I was so busy, I didn't exactly practice for it. I only know what I wanna say and do and I try to visualize what will happen during the presentation itself.

Thank God for the power of visualisation. I was really nervous during the presentation as I was the first and it was also the first time I am presenting alone. Anyway, I go ahead with what I wanna do and make my voice really strong. I made my presence known and my next move unpredictable, which kept everyone focusing their attention.

I forgot to do a couple of things that I intended to do but nonetheless, at the end of everyone's presentation, the facilitator was all praises for me for being confident (where in fact I am very nervous), well-prepared and good vocal strength. Hahaha. Praise the LORD!

The individual presentations continue today till next week until everyone have presented. Took a video of one of my classmate's presentation today. Everyone was laughing from beginning till end as he was quite... ah... crappy through out the presentation. Hope he does well for the presentation. Anyway, presenting Ying Ming!



Then it was followed by our Psychology presentation on the Psychosocial Impact of Coronary Heart Disease. I had expected other groups to have role-plays in between and I was right. The previous weeks, the other groups presented in lecture style with a role-play in between.

In order to stand out from the rest and be different, I actually made an bold attempt to make my group's whole presentation a role-play. There is no lecture at all, just role-play all the way. I appointed Jeya to take charge of narrating and the transparencies while the other five of us will act out.

In the first scene where everyone of us will have to act out a certain unhealthy lifestyle and eventually die of heart attack, we did so in a narrate(intro), act, freeze, narrate (explain), act format.

I was quite worried at first as the group does not have any prior full rehearsal. All we have were quick runs that were not finalize at the point of rehearsals and a final script that I emailed everyone a few days before the presentation. As everyone seems to be quite conservative during our group meetings, I was also worried that they may not act out to the fullest.

I was trying to make this presentation a humorous one so it is really important that everyone be very dramatic. When they do anything, they must really exaggerates everything they do, especially the part where they die.

I was the one to go first. So I made my words funny, made the class laugh. Then as I die, I really slumped to the floor and surprized everyone. I got up and went back to my group. They have a look that they are going to faint anytime. Hahaha. Anyway, they really went out they and did their best to match up to my expectation and acted like I did. The least that anyone did when they died was to have both knees on the ground. Can really hear the whole class laugh, it feels great! Hahaha.

The next part was to act out a social support group to discuss the problems that heart patients will face and how they can manage them. We invited 2 guys from the audience to join us, something totally unheard of, totally new, fresh and unexpected. They 2 guys dunno what to do which I already had that in mind so I wasn't worried. Hahaha.

Had a lot of fun during this part. Jeya controlled the transparency well so as it was really easy to follow through the message we want to bring about as we acted out.

We made jokes in between, was glad that the audience laughed. Hahaha. Made fun of the 2 guys and thank goodness they were very spontaneous and flow well. Hahaha. My group carried the right mood as they talk about different topic. Like when Ting Ting was talking about sexual issue regarding heart disease, she stumbled here and there because she was a little embarrased. It would have being bad if it was some other topic but for this particular topic, it was great! The class was laughing. Hahaha.

Well, you can see that I am quite a comedian by now. I love to make people laugh as I act or present.

Anyway, the comment by the facitlitator was excellent! He praised us for making a very good attempt to have an explanation-within-explanation-within-roleplay. He mentioned that it was well coordinated, easy to follow through and other groups could learn from us! What more can we expect? Praise the LORD. To everyone in my group, YOU'RE THE BEST! THANKS!!!

On Tuesday, Xueting asked me to meet her as Gerald will be coming to NYP to appeal for the course he wants. It was nice to see that the Cut-Off-Point (COP) for nursing in NYP this year had dropped to 21, which shows that standards have gone up. Hahaha.

Also saw some interesting offered. Diploma in Horticulture. Was joking with my friend that it can also be known as Diploma in "Farmacy", read "Pharmacy". Pun intended. Hahaha. I know it is more than just 种菜 （planting vegetables） lah. It also involve research into agricultural, plant breeding and such. Just an interesting way to look at it. :)

The rest of the day till today is studying for test test test and more TEST! Oh well. Monday had my Bio practical test. Today just had my Skills theory test. Friday will have Psychology theory paper. Next Monday will be my Skills practical test. Well, 2 down and 2 more to go. Had being managing pretty for the 2 papers. So all the best to me. Hahaha.

GOD IS GOOD. :)

Crying Out Silently...

Really very stress this whole week. With presentations to rush and exams to study, man, I am still smiling and laughing with all my friends. Hahaha.

I tried not to let others see that I am tired but nonetheless, it is really thanks to my CG members that helped me keep believing that life is more than just work and stress all the time.

The members like Alex, Boon Teck, Chloe, Desmond and not forgetting Joey were just so spontaneous when it comes to fellowship. They talk, they make you feel relax and they will come out just about anytime to spend time with one another. You're guys never know much how your availability help me to relax and kept me going through out this week.

By the way, I have uploaded the videos for the KTV outing on W372's Blog. Hahaha.

Together with a few Copers; Jacelyn, James, Vincent, Tina, Kelly, Sarah and even Hansel, we went for Joanna's 21th Birthday Party!

Here's some video I've taken


The birthday present shared by 10 of the Copers! A crystal pendant from SWAROSKI!


Look at how her cousins disturb her! Hahaha.

It was really fun. Joanna loved the pendant a lot. The Copers who turned up had a good time of fellowship.

Well... if only I have a 21st birthday like this. Hahaha.

Didn't have a party for my 16th, 18th and 21st birthday. One thing is because I don't really know how to hold a party, another thing is because of my budget, then perhaps it is just not my style to throw a party.

Despite the fact that I can be really loud, I still somehow like smaller groups and a quiet celebration. Then again, how I wish I could have throw a fantastic birthday party like this for myself or... some friends were to throw it for me. Hahaha.

Looks like there is this inner side of me who will constantly cries out silently whenever I am tired or when i desire something. What an oxymoron. Hahaha.

Nonetheless, I still have my 60th birhtday to go. Gonna make my 六十大寿 BIG! Hahaha!

GOD IS GOOD. :)

What have I being doing all these while?

Today went to KTV with my CG. I didn't really sing a lot of songs because I hardly listen to the radios these days. I never have the habit in the first place and I don't really appreciates it. Hahaha.

The only music that I like in the past are all rock music such as Bon Jovi and Duran Duran. Now I only listen to Christian Music. So I felt many of the songs that my members sang in KTV are really alien to me, save for a few really old songs. Hahaha.

Nonetheless, I still had fun, smiling and laughing all the way as they prank and make silly noises while singing. I did what I could have only done if I am not singing, I video recorded the whole thing with my phone. Hahaha. Quite good. My members are all eager to get the clips from me.

Desmond, Alex and I went down to Eunice's place to help her fix her wardrobe after KTV. For some reason, everyone was really tired. For me, it was because I was rushing my project for the past few days. The wardrobe wasn't difficult to fix up.

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On the way home, I closed my eyes on the train asn kinda doze off. As I quiet down, I start to hear the Spirit within me asking me.

"What have I being doing all these while?"

I start to reflect myself upon this question and while doing so, my ears became very open and I could hear everything that Desmond is saying through the phone, at the point when he was talking about spirituality and learning to press in into God and our leaders.

Rev. Ulf's words also came to me, "Don't end up reaching for something only to lose what is truly important."

"What have I being doing all these while?"

I have being in church for almost six years. I have changed much, I have gained much and I have also lost much. I have my share of blessings, as well as my share of hurts and corrections. One thing I know, I have grown and I am a much better person compare to who I was before I was saved. In fact, I have also changed much since the past one year.

However, I came to realise that, I am beginning to feel complacent. I am not as hungry for the spiritual stuff as I used to be. I seems to do things just because I enjoy doing it, not because I want to do it with the glory of GOD. I don't grumble, I don't complain, in fact, I really enjoy doing things. But what difference does that make me from an ordinary, helpful non-believer? It is really just vanity.

"What have I being doing all these while?"

Even though the words Desmond said was for the other person through the phone, I was still very stirred up by what he had said.

Truly, everything is always so divine.

The moment I got home, I can really sense God touching me as I prayed. I could feel that the one important thing to pray for was really to pray for my leaders, Brother Ming Jin and Irene. The main thing that God really want me to do now, is to press in into their lives.

I don't know how I am going to do that. Write a card? Call them? It is not easy because they are both busy and also the fact that they are leaders. But at least there is one thing that I can do everyday, I can pray for them. And if God tells me to press in, He will provide the way and the means for me to do so.

It all just depend on how hungry I am for it and to what extent am I willing to do it. God always provide more for great hunger. Today, I rededicate myself to Jesus.

GOD IS GOOD. :)

Fun with A&B!

On Monday I think. I was really tired after so many days of sleepless nights and something happened to piss me off that day.

As I was alighting the MRT at Jurong East that day, the people who were trying to board the train press in towards the door and left no gap. So As I try to alight, I got to brush past these people as they try to squeeze in. (so much for the courtesy campaign about letting passengers alight first.)

As I was already very very tired, I was totatlly pissed of at these people. So I broaden my shoulder and MARCH out instead of trying to squim myself to squeeze through some narrow gap.

Then I knock my shoulder into this guy who was standing right in the middle of the two doors. He fell down with his hands holding on to his bleeding nose. He was crying in pain. I went over, squat down beside him and insult him with two light slap on his left cheek.

"Next time, let passengers alight first."

Then I stood up, gave him a football kick across his face which sent two of his teeth flying off. (Just kidding. Hahaha.)

I went to Mustafa with Alex and Boon Teck (A&B) today. Alex was suppose to ORD on the 2nd of March, which is tomorrow but he kept thinking it is today. Hahaha. Anyway he will be getting his Pink IC tomorrow. ORD LOR! Hahaha.

Oh ya. Things at Mustafa is CHEAP. CHEAP CHEAP CHEAP! I bought a Scandisk 256MB Dual Voltage Reduced Size MMC card for my phone at only $36! Sports shoes and almost every thing there is almost $10 to $50 cheaper! That include perfume, digital cameras and many more! Gotta go there to get my stuff in the future.

Later Boon Teck Gotta leave and left me and Alex. We went to this food centre near Bugis and had Roast Duck Rice. It is a very famous store and there was a long queue. The roast duck is simply delicious! The skin is crispy, the meat is tender and not too salty, in fact, it is juicy! The fats though visible but yet it doesn't taste oily. Very nice! Hahaha.

We shop around Bugis village after that and Alex bought a pair of jeans and a red, gothic top. I bought a new pair of jeans there that resembles Levis. In fact, the material is the same as Levis. Thick yet flexible and I bought it at only $33! The lenght is just nice, the cutting is good and the design is unlike the plain jeans I always wear. It looks more rugged and fresh. Looks like I will be going back there to get more jeans and clothings in the future.

Man... having this headache. Alex also having the same headache. I think we probably smelled too much perfume over at Mustafa. Hahaha. Ok. Gotta rest now. It was fun getting to know the guys. Brother-to-brother fellowship is indeed very different from fellowship with the sisters.

It's a men's world and the ladies don't get it. Hahaha. (Just a pun from that Lady's Card)

GOD IS GOOD. Hahaha. :)