Renew.

Some of my links aren't working anymore cuz they are outdated. I don't really have much time to blog these days, much less tinker with my templates so I just have to put up with it for awhile.

Attachment kept me busy but it was fun. Not going to say too much to protect the identity of the staffs and patients at my workplace.

My mind is cluttered with a lot of things to say just like there is a lot of rubbish in my computer I need to clear. You can see for yourself how disorganize this entry is.

My friend was telling me about how frustrating to make friends and only to know that they are not your type of people. "They could not understand you, they are insercure, they always think so big about themselves."

So I tell her, "I have made many friends and I have let go many too. For the same reasons as you."

Friends come and go. As I get on with my life, I realise that most of the friends I made are not permanent. In fact, some of the closest friends I have are the ones who hurt me the most. The fact when something like this happen, it is almost not possible to try to be "like in the old days" anymore. There is a lack of trust though there is forgiveness.

What are some of the things that my ex-friends used to do?

Backstab me, spread rumours about me, irritates me, think too big about themselves, treat me unfairly, and a couple of them downright treat me as non-existant by not bothering to sms or reply and blame me for things I never done.

Yup. Come to think about it, it is scary. But nonetheless, there are still friends who will care about me and friends whom I can truly trust.

"Why didn't you try to make friends with people who will not hurt you then?"

Because there is no where to avoid hurts. Even your best friends can hurt you.

"Why didn't you choose your friends wisely then?"

Because you never know who a person is really like until you get to know them as a friend.

"Why are you still making friends then?"

Are you CRAZY? Of course I am still making friends for the fact that all of us need friends. Good ones will support you, bad ones will betray you. But on one can ever make it on their own. That is the irony of life.

To fail doesn't means you are a failure. To lose a battle doesn't means you lose the war.

The only people who don't need anyone anymore are six feet underground.

So to say, there is nothing wrong, to be friends with someone today, and on longer friends tomorrow. It is just part and parcel of life. The fact there we are all alive and moving on with life. That we keep making friends believing that there is someone better out there.

For God is my friend forever and ever, and He never lets me down.

Many things are indeed meaningless without God.

GOD IS GOOD. :)