Sometimes, the more you desire something, the harder it is for you to get it.
Perhaps, it is because you have not put in enough effort.
Maybe not.
More likely you wanted it for the wrong motive.
Fame, pride, selfish reasons.
Sometimes to get something, all you have to do is to humble yourself. Sometimes, not wanting something for yourself will place that very thing into your hands. When you start to realise your life is not just yours alone.
"Not my will but Your will be done."
Have you ever have that experience, that you just keep fighting so hard for something, it just doesn't happen?
Then the day you start to let go, a sense of peace will come. Holding on to things that aren't meant to be is tiring, frustrating, and depressing.
"Hope deferred makes the heart sick..."
All of a sudden, life seems peaceful, and sometimes boring.
Nothing is happening much but you are just contented at how things are now.
As you look back at the old days when you fought so hard, you no longer feel sad or angry about it. It is just another memory, that creeps back at you when you aren't doing anything. It doesn't matter anymore. You may even feel glad that it is over.
Just when you thought everything has ended, you start to see the things you desire begin to come to pass.
A little at a time but at a steady rate. You no longer yearn for it but you find yourself better equiped to handle the challenges.
You have more confident now. You are doing your best. Things are going smoothly and you wonder why it wasn't like this in the past.
That is because your "lust" has turned to "love". You no longer look at yourself and you have learnt to let go.
The work is no longer a burden, it is become a joy.
"To enjoy your work and your lot in life... God keeps such people so busy enjoying life that they take no time to brood over the past."
Delay is not denial.
Hold on to the promise and let go of your undue self-awareness.
You can never succeed on your own.
My Wants
- An Ultra Portable Mini PC
- New Laptop (must be better and faster than my current one of course)
- New Leather Shoe with Pointy Front
- Sony Ericsson Cybershot Cellphone
- White Converse Tote Bag